I have had the Colin Hay song ‘Waiting For My Real Life to Begin’ stuck in my head since yesterday morning and by this afternoon I got around to thinking about whether it was actually something more than an earworm. I guess it is generally a pre-op theme tune for me, thinking back I have always had the sense that my life is in stasis (generally because by the time I agree to surgery I am at the point of being completely disabled by whichever joint is currently the issue). This will be my 9th surgery and my 7th in the last 8 years (I actually managed my one resolution that 2011 would be a surgery free year) and each time by the time the surgery date comes around I have generally been unable to work or an average of about 3months and have become firmly lodged in hibernation mode.
Having said that this time does feel somewhat different, the realisation that hibernation was beginning pushed me to set targets and eventually led to the introduction of the sticker chart. Nonetheless it still feels rather like life is stuck in a massive state of stasis that can only be resolved by getting to the point of being able to start rehab. At this point I will at least be able to feel like I am working towards the day that my real life can begin again.
‘See I already have a plan
Im waiting for my real life to begin’
Hope to see you soon real life, I miss you!
Having said that this time does feel somewhat different, the realisation that hibernation was beginning pushed me to set targets and eventually led to the introduction of the sticker chart. Nonetheless it still feels rather like life is stuck in a massive state of stasis that can only be resolved by getting to the point of being able to start rehab. At this point I will at least be able to feel like I am working towards the day that my real life can begin again.
‘See I already have a plan
Im waiting for my real life to begin’
Hope to see you soon real life, I miss you!
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